It's quite fascinating reading back my thoughts, especially those that weren't touched at all after coming back to Malaysia.
I thought these thoughts? How? Wow!
I'm even... slightly impressed...?
It's quite fascinating reading back my thoughts, especially those that weren't touched at all after coming back to Malaysia.
I am having mixed feelings recording down everything I wrote on paper while I was in NZ.
I took out my old NZL diaries and it honestly washed me over with a small wave of uncomfortableness. Is this even a word.
Now that I know myself more through MBTI, sadness and happiness somehow seems more easily manageable, as if the cloud that has always been misting my head has cleared a little.
I've got nowhere else to rant these shits, not even to myself.
What was I doing exactly a year ago? I believe I was working my last week at Trevelyan's, after failing to get a job at Auckland. Nearing October 15th, (or was it 20th?) my working visa was about to end, and I desperately needed to earn as much money as possible. After all, I would only have a limited amount of cash to survive 3.5 months overseas.
I am just, suddenly feeling this surge of nostalgia and ... an emotion of longing to do SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE MAKE ART PUBLISH BOOKS AND DREAM AND LAUGH AND EXPLORE THE WORLD CAMP ON A MOUNTAIN AND- I am stuck in my room with my laptop at 5:00am. The thunder roared, and I wondered if my dog is okay. She's afraid of thunder.
It astounds myself how I never realize that I could just, create a new blog to record everything tagged NZL???